okay, me being sick and sleeping in the same bed as colleen didnt mix very well @ all last nite---i was feeling fine, well, in that horribly sick kinda way and i fell asleep and all but then at 3AMish, i was having like this bizzare nightmare thats haunting me to this very second ill try to explain---
k it was lyke....a fabric nightmare---all of the sudden the little 1 soft thread would turn into a bunch of hard crap b4 the soft could catch up-----and i woke up horrified because my sheets, pillow, cover and blanket all felt hard and horrible, it was TERRIBLE and colleen asked me what was wrong and i told her to feel it but she was like what? so i got up 2 get some water from the bathroom, and i hoped if i stayed away from my bed 4 awhile, then it would all go away.
but when i went bakk to my bed, it was all still there--in fact, it still hasnt gone away. it's not just my bed, its everywhere. my head wants to explode because i cant get ride of it!!!! i struggled to push it away and colleen asked what was wrong and i told her all the covers were hard---and at that point i was prettie sure they were going to eat me and she's like well listen to music, so i did. i put my cd on repeat and listened 2 it for idk how long. but i couldnt lay down ne more.
but i eventually did. the music sorta helped drown my thoughts but they were still there. i turned my cd player off when i saw it was getting lighter outside but it was onli 7:20. i was so tired i fell asleep for---well, till about 9am. i feel soooo hungry but i dont want to eat....like, everything i touch sends a shiver down my back and makes me want to never touch it again...i remember this has happened b4, just not so horribly, and i was onli 5. can't forget something like that...this is so horrible and i dont knoe what to do about it...

all that went thru my head last nite was that i was going to die--die today-----completely lose my mynd and my life...