i always do that, i always always always do everything at the last minute. i dont mean to, it's just hard to keep up with everything. especially schoolwork and that leadership project that i can only always think about. i still have to make a call to ask if i can paint a murral somewhere but.....dont tell but im sorta afraid of talking on the phone and even more with someone i dont know.
if i have to call someone, once i work up the guts to i cant breathe while the phones ringing!! i guess you could say once im actually talking to the person, say, crystal, im fine. but i even get freaked out calling my boyfriend! i do call him alot but sometimes i hang up after it dials once...or something like that. i have no idea what's wrong with me i just think it's because im so shy...could that be why?
doesn't matter who im calling, i always freak out when the phone starts ringing. to keep a conversation going over the phone is just as stressful. i mostly sit there, holding my breath hoping the other person will just talk and i wont have to reply with anything more than a yes or no or idk or a laugh. troy always brings it up that i never talk on the phone WHILE we're talking on the phone...which is basically the only time we do talk anyways...
once i called him and right before the message his machine made the beep, i hung up. i realli wish i wasn't so afraid of calling people. it's making me crazy right now because i cant get myself to call the place and start on that murral....and mr parris is getting realli mad that i haven't started on it. it's the only thing i can think about. i kept me awake most of the night last night. i just want to ask my dad or someone to do it but then again if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself.....ah, who cares.
in this case im completely desperate, i might even get one of my friends to do it! but i cant do that.....idk what to do!!