a blanket of sadness
is covering his face
depression in the darkness
hiding from another day

an effortless stare
up to the sky
to look at the stars
and hate all the lies

does he sit in the corner
burry his head and cry?
does he go through every day
just wishing he could die?

hate the world
that hate's him back
doesn't he know
she's the something he lacks

she's the angel from his nightmare
his bright shining star
forever she's been waiting
she's been there from the start

still he doesn't see her
through another day
he doesn't even know
she's being torn away

only when she's gone
will he realize she was there
would he ever dare
to show his loving care?

I can only imagine that's it's extremely hard for someone to keep up with schoolwork and a job! well, even though im 15 my mum went with me to sign an application to work for the subway in the super walmart that we live near....my mum already works in the smartstyle there so she had me write down the same hours she already works for monday tuesday thursday and friday. monday and tuesday are okay i guess but im going to have to work instead of other stuff on the other days if i got that job. mum's pretty sure i will get the job actually. and theres that student government fundraiser at Zern's market this friday from 2pm-10pm and mum signed me up so i could start on the 12th...and the fundraisers the 13th. lol so im like hoping i wont get the job...but then again im willing to try it if i do....it's just going to be so much to keep up with. when i turned 13 everything changed and i thought i knew everything. when i was 14 everything changed again and i thought i knew everything and that's what it feels like every year haha but i know that it's going to stay that way; just get harder every year. this year ill probably be starting to drive by the end of the year and idk what not. i still have to do that leadership class project. i have to paint a mural in my community somewhere and i haven't even figured out where to paint it and mr parris thinks im going to call the green lake reseviour today and ask if i can paint one there.....and i reeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaally dont want to...and i probably wont. -_- i wish i could get my daddy to do it all for me...and then id paint it. still, i dont' even know what to paint yet. mr parris isn't very happie that i haven't done anything yet hes like ' lets get a move on here chloe' and also he wasn't very happie that i failed the first part of the course....not that im very happie either i haven't completed any of the lessons in that course because i can barely kee up with my other classes! math, advanced technology, arts and culture, science, english, spanish 2, and history....and im in the movie club and i was put in charge of the art section to the year book....and im a senator on the student government. im so  involved in school because school is basically my life lol.....if it's not schoolwork it's schoolfriends. and i love my schoolfriends ^_^ i dont knoe about that student government retreat thats on april 24th, idk if i can go but i did write down info for mum to look at. idk where dad is these days, either out of the state or in his office....i think he's in colorado right now.   yup, spring break definately gets you out of order. i was afraid to come home after spring break because i didn't want to come back to this mess haha, i have schoolwork piled up because im not the least bit ahead like i tried to get b4 spring break. and of course one thing thats hardest to keep up with in school is all the gossip and what not that goes around. well....i think i got a fair ammount of schoolwork finished today...i dont even remember stopping to eat but i realli haven't been in the mood to eat l8tely...anywayz, peace <3

___chloE___

spring breakk was definately not worth the whole count down thing....i barely got any sleep on the whole trip and it was a loooong trip. turns out crystal was engaged to chris...yes, i said WAS, i 'helped' break them up and chris wouldn't leave me alone all week -_-

sean came to our hotel to visit crystal and they were always together doing stuff...never with me though so i eventually stopped trying to hang out with them and they both think that i was avoiding them and crystal thinks i hate her. cody came and he's changed alot, he dyed his hair and got taller and isn't as shy. cortney likes him again so now i think they're going out again. crystal was hitting on him too. i eventually stopped hanging out with them too because they basically made fun of me whenever i was with them. i know im realli weird but i got tired of them telling me that....all the cousalours were always pulling me aside because they thought something was wrong

i got so extremely tired and it was so cold there that i got a cold from being outside so long freezing my butt off so i felt terrible and just wanted to go home. it was a pretty miserable week for me...not at all what i expected. and we didnt move on from fine arts

ahhh.....i need to catch up on my sleep