i got a job! if i havent already said that, yeah im working at subway now =) but the reason i wrote bigger changes is because even though our house has been for sale for a long time, people are finally looking at it and i have a feeling we'll be moving soon. probably into our camper until mum and dad find a campground (most likely in a different state)) and we move there. that means new everything. no more job, no more palcs school, no more 'my own room', none of that.......everything'll change. i really dont want that, and im completely devastated about all this, idk what to do, what to think, anything im going to boston and new hampshire to visit my mum's grandmother =) we'll be there the whole week. i have to work today, we leave tomoro, i have ALOT of schoolwork yet to do and i dont have that much tyme to complete it all now......ends june 8th and not onli am i piled up with schoolwork, i barely have time to say final goodbyes to ALL my friends from school. moving means not going to this school anymore and we have to give the computers back *cries* good thing for the end-of-the-school-year picnic on june 4th i hope we go, everyones going to be there..........even blake. which a few months ago i wouldve been like OMG IM GONA DIE but a few weeks ago me and josh we're talking about him and right now i finally see what blake's realli like and i knoe that i wont have a probably meeting him for the first time after all of this. i wont even have a problem meeting dubrock, i guess i forgive her now. im actually glad now for everything she did otherwise id pry still be with blake. speaking of which, troy's still my boyfriend but ive been trying to get ahold of him ever since yesterday so i can break up with him. yeah on the phone. also, i wont talk to him anyways once we move and i simply dont have any feelings for him. yeah i have a crush on him because he's nice and cute, but apparently thats it and that's all he wants it to be. so yeah. and i like someone else. the situation there would be that i would have to make the first move, which ive been thinking about alot but they mite hate me when they knoe i like them....and once we move i wont be able to see them anymore anyways. but now that ive finally grasped the concept that we really are leaving soon, i realize that i can do just about anything now. tell people things and not worry about it anymore because ill never see them again. make my point in a situation and leave it at that and not ever have to deal with it again. like the person i like....i could just tell them i like them, ask them out and see what happens and sooner or l8ter i wont have to worry about their rejection. yeah im pretty sure they're not going to say yes to me. but i have to try, ya knoe? i mean, i cant just leave it. i love them way too much, the thing with moving is you dont realize how much you love and need things and people until they're gone. chloe<3 |